Carefreelyinlove

I don’t need a prince to come and save me, I just want one. This means that I don’t need you I want you. I am not afraid to be single, and for that fact you should worry. I will not beg you to stay, I won’t get into a fight with some chick over you. It will hurt to watch you go I won’t lie. I will miss your arms, your smell, and I will definitely miss your lips when you are gone. As hard as it will be to say goodbye to you it will be even harder for me to say goodbye to me. I will not sacrifice myself and my values to keep you. I know what I want and if you want me as well then you will see you are messing up a good thing. But I can’t  put all the blame on you though, it was my fault we happened so fast, you didn’t even get to work for it. I awake now though and it’s time for me to pump the brakes and reevaluate, and if this change isn’t something you agree to I will have to say no more. We can be friends but thats it. I won’t beg and definitely won’t let you see me cry, cause I don’t need you to be my prince and save me I just wanted you to be. 

I always thought of myself as the independent type. I mean I come from a line of strong women who stand on their own two feet without the help or encouragement of a man. I took pride in the fact that I could do that as well. Hell my motto is I don’t need a prince I just want one. But with a look, whispered sweet nothings, and a soft caress it seems as though my strength has disappeared. Even though my number of relationships is very low I still know what I want out of them. I know how I want a man to treat me. So why I am I not standing up for what I want, why am I letting this shit fly. He is just a man, and there are millions of them in the world. I am stronger than that, my conversation tonight was a the cold water to the face that I needed. I’ve been trying to wake up but I have been doing it way to slowly. Now I just hope my lack of strength for this brief moment hasn’t messed anything up. 

Good morning and Good night texts  💜

No one can get under my skin as much as you 

You make me want to slap the hell outta you and cuss you out so damn bad

And it pisses me off even more that I feel bad about thinking about doing that because,

the bible says to honor you, but it also says not provoke others without cause

If you were anyone else pulling what your pull I’d put you in your place real quick, 

but because of who you are I must let my frustrations and anger  out in my writing, so 

here it is seven words 

I am so freaking pissed right now

This time this goodbye wasn’t so painful because I knew what to expect

I know i’ll be back home soon, so this time there were no tears

This place isn’t strange, and I got people waiting for me,

But that still doesn’t stop the feeling I get late at night 

Because we are apart and for eighteen years it’s been just you and I,

and at times like this I miss having you right across the hall, 

granted you get on my nerves sometimes, and we may fuss and fight

Times like this I still miss you

But this time I didn’t cry because I’ll see you soon

two weeks to be exact and then this feeling have now will go away

Because this time mom I know what to expect, see you soon

I wonder what people see when they look at me?

Do they see someone who’s happy and carefree,

or do they see what hide within?

I wonder what people think when they look at me?

Do they think I am stuck up 

or do they take the time too understand that I take pride in myself?

I wonder what people say when they look at me?

Do they say they can’t stand her because she acts like a bitchy know it all,

Or do they say this girl is really smart and i value her opinions?

See I wonder what people think, but I don’t talk they opinions to heart,

because I know who I am and others would too if only they would

get off their high horse, realize that I don’t think I’m better and definitely not less than 

Anyone, I’m me and you can get to know me or not 

Cause at the end of the day you can say, see, and think whatever you want about me

cause I’ll still be me, cause even though I wonder what people think about me

It only matters what I think about me

-Lenoir C